mutual changes result in a mutual understanding but for the first time i feel left behind. life or rather my environment seems to be changing faster than i am. a fear is creeping in, that makes me feel insecure. i am unable to fight with the world, and am even losing control on myself! it is the dread of being left alone: without my only support that had always carried me towards the result of my change. the fear might overcome me soon and if it does so i will go back to where i had started.
the thought is frightening!