deplorable thought 
crushing the intimacy of heart;
the restlessness 
of suffocation 
overpowering the 
once upon a time strength:
the indecisive superiority 
of the present weakness
killing the spirit 
that lead it ahead.
the ignorance created 
out of the dependence 
on the 'strength',
made it handicapped
to speak for itself.

the reason was wretched 
for the sake of 
the undeserving cause;
but it still isn't late:
though even more difficult 
is to convince its own self 
in favour of the action
so strongly wished for 
but even strongly contradicted.